tell me when
I asked for
someone to love
who would not
could not
cannot love me
in return

someone whos words
is all I can get
for them to say and say
again and agian
but no action

people who
I never associated with
who breath to associate
with me
now
when I coudl care less

a house where
I loved by some
tolerated by most
and hated by few
where in the end
I will not be
a part of it

tell me
when I asked for
this life
this talent
this knowledge
these people
the events
that scattered
create my life

I may not have asked
for all of this
but without it
I am not
alive
me
myself
I