Monday, February 21, 2011

ask who is crazy
and i will be first in line
to tell you
that i am crazy

i love my life
i love how odd it is
thanks for the passion
and for the voice
and sometimes
for the lack of words

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

why why
someone try and tell me why
they think their actions
are working for the common good
remove rights
define marriage

poetry past
marriage impossible
look at the world we live in today
it is amazing how hopeless i can feel
but yet
i was much more hopeless then
and didn't realize that possibility that the world held

stop talking about god
and talk about love
the one thing we all have in common

remove the rights of one and all rights are lost

love in need of love

Monday, February 14, 2011

when you do not write
it is as though
the calls stopped

but returning to writing
is as though you open the phone lines
to the world
and calls seem to trickle in at first
but soon
it is a flood
of anything
you can imagine
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how we all long
for the unexpected
friend
situation
kiss
encounter
time
sunset
place
on the water
who
two people
stand
as if on an island
alone
the sound of the waves
the smell of salt air
the graceful touch of their hand
the comfort of warmth
familiarity
words need not be spoken
the moment
is enough
it is enough
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the weight of love
can be quite unbearable
and can also set you free
never did tink
think that the same thought
could both lift one to the sky
and bring another crashing down

it is one thing to be in love
and another to be loved
the merits of either
completely debatable

what is known
that when it comes to love
it isn't always right
or best
and
it is always better to put love in
and never fear that you will return nothing
love will come around
it will find a day
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body
awareness
perceiving one's own self
could be harder than you think
you may think
that you know you
but the route to the prize
may be more treacherous than you expect

if you don't know yourself
how will you know anyone else
will you feel their weight
their need
their hand
do you want to miss the possibility
of more
of love

being with
someone
being with someone

the finesse
of the touch
and the movement of the world
are ever evolving
and if we do not know ourselves
we have no chance to know the world
give me somebody to sing for
give me somebody to show
let me wake up in the morning to find
i have somewhere exciting to go
give me the music
give me the chance to come through
all i ever needed
was the music and the piano
and the chance to sing for you

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empty out my little head
as empty as my bright red bed
pour from me the stirring thoughts
and all the things i wish i'd forgot
give me to a bit of rest
so i may wake and find i'm blessed
remembering the love i've known
and seeing how i've grown

i will not ask for
the things i do not need
for in the moments
we plant a seed
germ and bud and leaf push out
searching for the sun above
to the sun in roundabout
with the rain it grows in love

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look back at moments
and tell me
are you happy
do you want to change anything
cut or paste

would you trade it
for the world

tell me your first kiss
tell me how you became an adult
tell me who mattered most

we tend to grow forward
i hope
and i fear that we do not look back
in the moments we can

try not to regret a decision
being happy isn't a lie
its a state of mind
that you have control of
be thankful for what you have
cherish the littlest

Friday, February 11, 2011

thanks to Jean de la Ville de Mirmont for inspiration

the horizon
debatably fabulous
is always just that
the horizon
lining the world you see
day in
day out
out of reach
but acting
sometimes
as an agent of hope
and on occasion
a aide of hopelessness


years ago
i embarked
on a journey
one of countless many
this one
of education
and possible change
and hope
falter did i
and attempt
to persevere
and leave
to a world
that helped me to learn
and i returned to the journey
and i now doubt every day
how much i learned
how ready i was
and if i should be here
it is hard to say it is a waste of time
because i am gaining life
and knowledge
but at what cost

Thursday, February 10, 2011

words for the day
stark

it is amazing how much we can change
and yet still feel alarmingly the same
feeling that we have
and are
growing older
but in some
sometimes many ways
are surprisingly young

too old to make sure
that you are up in time
on saturday
for cartoons
but not too old to watch them

i feel like i am watching those around me get older
while i seemingly stay the same age
but i feel the ever present march toward death

having the vision
that even though
things seem to be improving
that i am succeeding
in some way

that the remainder
are digging themselves deeper


the distance
does not equal out
i am sinking
below sea level
and the air is too thick to breath
and i may drown
under the weight
of own mind

Sunday, February 06, 2011

you may never understand.

you are one of two friends

you are my only gay

i love you

despite

and for

all of these things


stop

hear me

i love you

it's that simple

i love you