i think of myself at times
as alone
and i walk a single path
never to vary from it
these events are supposed to happen
i am to be frustruated and such
to wish to die at times
and know that in life
i must keep going
to accomplish anything
growing any
learning lessons
all to happen
in time
out of it
asymetric
everything planned
and i will keep going
with the knowledge
or lack there of
of when it will end
because my date is set
and i cant change it

if only now i can accept the lack of control

at times like now
my mind is flooded by things to write
in an unintelligent order
undecipherable...
do i dare write
and let judgement occur
by myself let alone others
or do i not write
and simply say

i am frustruated
with myself
my feelings
my thoughts
my friend
my loves
my life

but i dont regret a thing

its all in the plan
all in the will
i will follow unknowingly
and attempt to love
and attempt to live
for no one on earth
but for love
of life


i feel that i didnt even make sense to me

that sounds good