i find myself quite perturbed
sometimes
when i realize
that i may not have traveled as far
as i once thought
i may have changed
and grown
but my armor
per se
is still permeable

i am still bothered by things
mind you these things now
may have been at one time
misunderstood
if understood at all
but now i seem them with much
higher clarity
or greater understanding
to know whether or not
what i know
is true is yet to be seen
and may not be known for some time

but what i do know is this
i prefer to be communicative
fear confrontation
i would say i do
but in the end
facing my problems head on
has greater impact
than avoiding them
or bottling them

i would much rather be proactive in my life
than let things deluge fall on me
and eventually bury me with the waves
that are sure to form

so here's to the people that rather than lunch
skip the meal to do what must be done
to get the work in and done
and done well

to those that look at school
not as a social environment but as a place
of work

i wish to you join you in that
i can eat later
and i can socialize later

i have often found
that being hungry makes the meal that much more satisfying
and that the friends i attempt to make
aren't always the ones i should be hanging around with

so i'll go hungry
and see who wants to join me for a late bite
because
they not only may be living a life like mine
but they will want to spend their time
with me

just because they are social lords
does not make them a lady
withholding of social approval
for whatever reason
give out but don't reply
accept but make no effort

i have never heard of such things before
only this sect
this division seems to make these actions

why do you think that is