i seem to hurt
not from physical exertion but
merely from mental and emotion wrought

to you
who is keeping you waiting
no one should shold waste your time

and you
do i fear time with you
because i fear that i may fall back in love with you

and you
is it your and i's stance that causes the pain?
that is slowly opening the door to a room full of water
enough to drown me?

god heal the pain
god give me strength

i look at information
given by a friend
someone whom i would love
to be involved with
i see what he says about
who he is
what he does
i see his preferences
his standards and requirements
i see his trepidation
and his anticipation
i think that i could fill his needs
i believe i could be the best for him
so i ask this
is it better in this instance
to push the envelope
try to redefine
or is it better
to be the one
who is standing by
always there through everything
the good and bad
the first and maybe
i could be the last
even if that were not so
i could say i was there
and i knew him
and i loved him
and still do
and always will