there is part of me that wonders
and questions
everything about me
constantly
but there is part of me
who longs to not be that person
incidentally it is the same part as the questioning

i feel forty as a turn 21
i long to be my age
as well as act it

i wish to have what i need to do
and what i want to do to fall in line
together
so that all would be in agreement
maybe then there would be less conflict
and the execution of my wants and needs
would feel more possible